I like meeting new people, whether we share the same concepts of life or not. I appreciate honesty regardless if it hurts or pleases, and I despise fake, ill-will personalities. My "friends only" journal comes only because of an intruder, who needs not know my personal doings and feelings. If she's anything like most people, she's checking this regularly, and I choose to keep it private, or rather in the view of those I trust. To the friends I have on here, I don't know what I'd do without you....and my therapist of course!

and that it's one hot motha outside...

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there's about 180 pictures to look at, but if you have time, this will so touch your heart. The team from the Challenger League that Marci's select team "buddied" with, was absolutely amazing.

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Tomorrow, Maric has this going on: "The Challenger League is a special needs baseball team. The Bayside Tigers have 13 players and play other teams from surrounding areas. It is a wonderful program and I promise it will be a positive experience you will not forget! Each player will buddy with a special needs player."

I believe it will be an amazning time.

And...my niece Erin is getting to play a solo today for her honors band. I'm so proud of her. I called her this morning all chipper and excited and cheering for her and she responded with her grumpy "I just woke up" voice. I had her laughing soon though, and I'm sure that when we hung up she wished for a split second that I didn't have her number!

We've approached Marci's parents about having legal guardianship for the next 3 years of Marci...they are ignoring us. Always nice. They don't even care about her, will not support her financially or emotionally and they want to ignore us. Assholes.

Mom is having a hard time. Everything is finally sinking in. She knows now that Tom isn't coming back. She cried all last night and Gray's Anatomy didn't help. She needs this though, to move forward (not move on, but forward).

I had a great dream about my dad a couple of nights ago. He was happy and healthy and he told me a few things that I'm curious to know if they'll happen. I asked him about Marci and he said he wished he would have had the chance to meet her. I woke up with a smile on my face.

It's Friday- Woo Hoo!

Woo Hoo for someone asking me if I'm losing weight today! I'm not, but still!

How many "final chances" do you really give someone?

Today is all that matters. I'm going to make the very best of it.




P.S. What kind of cool/unique "corporate gifts" have you been given through work? It has to be in the $25 range and it's for our Supervisors, Superintendents, and Managers out here. We've done mag lights (huge hit...we have mostly men), windshirts, umbrellas and bags. Only thing is we're ordering 100, so if sizes are needed, no thanks. That's a pain in the rear.

sorry...but this is just funny

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and I've been spinning uncontrollably.

I've lost both dads in less than 3 weeks to cancer. I don't know if my anti-depressants are working REALLY well, or if I just am numb to it all...it's strange.

For my dad's service we are having a cavalry ride up about 10 minutes prior to the service starting (http://www.brazoriacountycavalry.org/cmsms/). We have 8 "pall bearers" that will be walking my dad's Harley Davidson in, after the cavalry makes as much noise as possible with their engines. His Harley will be the central focal point of the service, surrounded by memorabilia for everyone to look at afterward. Towards the very end, while playing the video that Holly and Lori made for me (thank you both and I love y'all) and as Elvis Presley sings Amazing Grace, the "pall bearers" will walk the bike out.

The American Legion will present me a flag from the United States Army, and the Brazoria County Cavalry will present me a cap with my dad's name on the back.

My sister is doing the service...and Steve and I will be sharing stories. It's going to be very emotional but very honorable for my father.

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The day after he passed I laid in the hospice bed and slept for about 2 hours...right where he laid and took his last breath. That was the last time I've really slept....and that was Thursday.

Look at his face!

brother-in-law gift ideas, other than gift cards.

He likes to fish.

Today is going to be a good day.
Today is going to be a good day.
Today is going to be a good day.


There. Now work your magic people!

Or does I feel like someone should make me something special and surprise me?


It's probably just me.

The sun sets on the Mason horizon
showing shades of pink and blue.
With a new beginning blowing in the breeze
whispering my name ever so lightly,
yet I can still faintly hear it.
There's a sense of strength and courage,
I've never noticed here before.
I'm beginning to believe in myself again;
It just takes time.

Say, you have work to do, but don't want to do it. You're bored, and the websites you want to play on are blocked by your company (i.e. facebook, myspace, you tube, etc. What do you do?

Wow, if Gent could drive...


Thu Nov 6, 7:59 pm ETPRYOR, Okla. – A dog waiting in a car while at a car wash slipped the vehicle into gear and drove in a loop before the car came to a stop. Pryor police officer Brent Crittenden said the dog's owner was washing the vehicle when the 70-pound pit bull jumped on the dash and somehow shifted the car into reverse.

The car backed out of the car wash bay, continued onto a highway and then looped around before coming to a stop at an automated car wash lane.

Crittenden said the vehicle was impounded because its owner was unable to provide proof of insurance.

Because the dog was registered with the city, Crittenden said the owner was allowed to walk the pooch home.